It's 26th of Dec..just few more days towards the end and a start of a new year and hopefully some fresh new happy episodes of my life. my weekend filled with a program or shud i put it straight:: kursus kawen..haha..
yup, attended and learned a lot and perhaps ready??? nah...there's still way lots for me before the TRUE day, a wedding is fun for d name, a marriage..not exactly suits me or myself, at d moment at least..frens still take me cam budak2..says them.. the real me is much more..ok la, ade la time yg memg suke merengek, cakap or behave and blh x disamakan ngn my baby niece::ecah??..tapi i know wat it takes to be an adult just dun wanna be and dun have to be..well, not yet i guess..
so, kursus kawen..amek sbb memang xde keje, saje gatal2 nk meramaikan jemaah bakal pengantin..haha..we all took it pun..my frens and i..in fact ade je muke budak2 junior amek..diorang da ade calon or saje nk isi mase..xtau..ikut suke la..yg penting, i went thru it and got my license to get married or is it really dat easy..going through a 2 days course, know a lil bit if not much bout wat it takes to have a well organized and blessful marriage then just marry off ur someone..hmm..wow..dats tough..
seriously..ceramah2 tu memg fun, ustaz2 lawak gile n memg asyik gelak je dgr cite n pengalaman n tips they shared tp ade je contras die..scary gile dgr sal getting pregnant n giving BIRTH!! okay, so i did joke around with frens, saying..hey, i wanna have a baby next year,,tapi slepas dgr ceramah n di beri peluang utk tgk real life videos, which i soo cannot watch, tp budak2 sibuk lak nk describe n mr penceramah duk selamba je bcerite..man, how it really happens is definitely scary..im sorry, i just cant..will i ever find the courage to say yes i wanna be a mum???...insyaAllah, i will tapi tu la...tgk video pun xleh ni nk alami sendiri...hmmm....
pastu ade lak mcm2 cite sal konflik nyer..macam2 sebab remeh n of cos serius reasons yg leh wat kite bubar kawen..call me old fashioned but i seriously believe dat marriage is sacred..ikatan suci between suami n isteri..walau bagaimane care skalipun, they have to make it work for them n their new family..every parties kene amek role msg2 n live happy thru thick n thin..well, there goes d saying...come wat may, we''l be togther kan...so make it happen for it wat we have decided to commit from d moment of akad...
InsyaAllah, bile da sampai jodoh n seru..ade la kot peluang nak rase semua tu..n hopefully i'l make it thru with the one i believe is True for me and my future kids..aminnn...
